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I’ve found that resisting temptation has been pretty easy thus far. Just today there were three instances where I could have easily gone off track but pretty much said “No thanks” moved on: 1) bowl of hard candies in my office break room, 2) Hershey’s Kisses and Sweet Tarts at a team meeting at work, and 3) free beer and cookies at a volunteer meeting.

How was I able to say no? Well, my calorie limit is 1500 cal. a day and basically I wind up being ruled by logic. One Kiss is probably as many calories as a whole grapefruit. A grapefruit is delicious and takes five or ten minutes to eat. A Kiss is down your throat before you even realize it, and yet the calories are in your body. Now a bottle of beer, on the other hand, is probably as many calories as my whole lunch or the main part of dinner. So if I have a beer, I can’t have dinner without going over the limit. And dinner is more important than beer. I can eat four or five things at dinner or I can have some cookies and a beer. Of course the cookies and beer lose, on the scales of logic.

That’s really how it works. It’s true, I *can* eat some “junk” food, but since by and large such food is high in calories, I can only have a small amount of it — or else I have to sacrifice eating a lot of lower calorie food which would be more satisfying anyway.

This all plays into the fact I’m using cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) as the basis for my weight loss plan. A large part of CBT is forcing yourself to reason instead of letting your feelings overpower you and drag you to places you don’t want to go — depression, undue guilt, and even overeating. Here I’m using reasoning to tell myself that I can have a nice dinner and snacks or give in to an impulse to have a “treat” and then end up hungry. I don’t want to be hungry!

Tomorrow: This diet makes me feel like I’m eating all the time, much more than usual. But I’m only taking in about half the calories.

Earlier I posted some less than flattering shots. Now here are a few nicer shots, shots showing me at my best, over the last 5 years. I’m mostly just trying to show full-body shots, as well as outfits I used to wear that I don’t fit into any more. There are many, many more pics, which I’ll post from time to time as inspiration.

OK, that’s all for now. What’s funny about all of these pics is that at the time they were taken, I considered myself already overweight and those clothes too tight. Which I was and which they were! But instead of acting on that, I let it go and gained about 20 lbs. more.